Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I feel so left behind

First let me say that I am so very happy for all of my friends on TTCAL that have had BFPs recently. I am ecstatic for them, but I can't help but feel left behind.

I have taken a little break the past couple of weeks. Having my 1 year anniversary of my BFP at the beginning of December and then my m/c anniversary on Christmas Eve and then tomorrow is the 1 year of my D&C, it all just sucks and I needed a little break.

Now I go on to TTCAL and I am sad to see so many new names. I am sad that they have to be there and I am sad that I was left behind. I know that unfortunately there are still some of us oldies there, but I think you get what I mean.

Of course I am happy for everyone and I only want the best for everyone and their little ones, but the Debbie Downer of me wants to know when it is going to be my turn.

3 comments:

Tosha said...

Totally understand where you're coming from. i'm sad I have to be a newbie. And I'm sad that you still have to be there. *hugs* keep your chin up!

PS: i'm going to follow you!

~M said...

I'm sorry. I understand. It's hard. Here's hoping 2010 is a better year for all of us, you know?

MV said...

I've been feeling the same way hun. I'm on a little break myself, but I can't help but lurk and it makes me sad to see so many new people and sad that so many of my friends have moved on. :( {{{hugs}}}