Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I feel so left behind

First let me say that I am so very happy for all of my friends on TTCAL that have had BFPs recently. I am ecstatic for them, but I can't help but feel left behind.

I have taken a little break the past couple of weeks. Having my 1 year anniversary of my BFP at the beginning of December and then my m/c anniversary on Christmas Eve and then tomorrow is the 1 year of my D&C, it all just sucks and I needed a little break.

Now I go on to TTCAL and I am sad to see so many new names. I am sad that they have to be there and I am sad that I was left behind. I know that unfortunately there are still some of us oldies there, but I think you get what I mean.

Of course I am happy for everyone and I only want the best for everyone and their little ones, but the Debbie Downer of me wants to know when it is going to be my turn.


Tosha said...

Totally understand where you're coming from. i'm sad I have to be a newbie. And I'm sad that you still have to be there. *hugs* keep your chin up!

PS: i'm going to follow you!

~M said...

I'm sorry. I understand. It's hard. Here's hoping 2010 is a better year for all of us, you know?

MV said...

I've been feeling the same way hun. I'm on a little break myself, but I can't help but lurk and it makes me sad to see so many new people and sad that so many of my friends have moved on. :( {{{hugs}}}